Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Head space (or case) whichever

I must find a way to do this properly - I'm not sure why but my best ideas for blog posts come to me at 3am when it is far too cold to be sitting at this computer by the time I actually get here - the idea is gone and all I can write is blah, blah, blah!

It is interesting - I feel like I am finding my way back to me through this blog. I was so excited to be pregnant and have madam that I find over the last 2.5 years I have become so consumed with her that in a way I have turned a bit beige! Which was always my greatest fear in life. I never wanted to be that person that was 'taken over' by a child! I mean I was never going to be in a relationship, have kids or anything else! I was going to go off and save the world! Here I am at 30 - a stay at home mum, with a two and a half year old that has been in a relationship for 4 and half years!

Don't get me wrong I love my life and I was always told I could never have kids so the presence of the Madam blows my mind every day - I just need to figure out how to combine me and 'mum' and lover, friend,etc, etc into the same person to live twenty four hour days.

To be honest until two months ago I actually never knew about blogs - since I found them I have become addicted! I love the different types, different people, stories, photos and all they encompass.

I guess what I'm saying is this, me, the whole story is a work in progress............