A new way of life and a few questions

I am thinking of a change. I mentioned a while ago that I was looking for work, just a couple of days, to help out financially. I am applying for all part time jobs I can find but it seems they might be a little scarce - or they are not to keen on hiring someone who has had so much time away from the workforce.

So......

I am thinking of starting my own thing. A business that I can use my photography to create small 'art' items like individual prints, fridge magnets, bookmarks and maybe working some of my aromatherapy into the mix.

It is taking a while to get my head around this process. Even though I have had a few photos do quite well in competitions and had a few different people say I should use my photography as a business I kind of feel like I am faking it. I was talking to someone about this and it came up in discussion that if I started a venture that meant my 'full time' job was using my photography, editing and creating 'art pieces' that would make me an independant artist of sorts. I'm just not sure......

Does it have to be on a canvas and hung in a museum to qualify as art? Or can seing a photo that you took on a bookmark that you created be your art? Although there are different mediums, painter, sculptor, digital artist - is the common thread that we are all creators?

I would love to know what you all think as I try really hard to embrace this part of my life to pubically acknowledge my passion and hopefully turn it into some sort of venture!

An artist is a dreamer consenting to dream of the actual world.
George Santayana


* Also if anyone could help me and let me know how you can make buttons for things (ie;sponsers) on the blog that would be great! I have no idea and don't really understand the whole code thing. Thank you *

Afternoon delight

One of my favourite friends has moved so she is now five minutes from me..... I am excited

I do....or maybe I shouldn't

I am not sure why I have been thinking about it, maybe because I have read quite a few things recently about marriage and/or the lack there of. Or maybe it is because a few people have mentioned it or asked me. The Mr and I have been together five and a half years. We have been engaged for four and half years. We will get married, I guess, but it doesn't particularly bother me.

The Mr has been married before and I never really thought I would get married. Until I met him I didn't actually ever consider a long term relationship. So yes a long term relationship, being a stay at home mum and a three year old were not exactly in my plan.

I don't think I have an aversion to marriage - although we are having a Mexican stand off over the fact I wont change my name - I am just not sure wether it should happen. I like the idea but when I look at it realistically - will it change anything? Do people move from long term relationships to marriage and is it better or does it all fall in a heap? Does it really make a difference to kids?


What do you lovelies think? Is marriage past it's use by date, is it not economically viable or have we lost the ceremony and romance from our relationships.

Breathe & take a photo....

Big, Green.......

I am reading a book at the moment called The Possibility of Everything by Hope Edelman. It is fantastic (more on that later) but one of the best lines in it is something like ' this situation sucks big, green, donkey dicks'. I love that line because at the moment it sums up my life. Right now my life sucks big, green, donkey dicks!

I try to be positive, look on the bright side, 'I'm alright' is my mantra. But the fact is it all sucks right about now. I have a sick chick AGAIN seriously since when do kids have so many bloody colds! If I had known she was going to get this sick I would have put her in a bubble when she was born. Which of course means I am sick AGAIN - YAY! It is hard enough being sick let alone with a sick chick - I can't curl up in the foetal position like I want to.

I also have a very clingy girl - I don't know why, what. when , where or how. But basically I can't breathe without hearing the word 'MUM' and as much as I love her now that has extended to night hours as well I am about to pull my hair out. She wont even stay with the Mr so I can go and get things done.

Add this to desperately trying to make ends meet (why the f&*%k don't they!) and I am pretty much at the end of my rope. Yes our lack of financial stability is the reason for the sudden ads on my blog! The Mr has started another business which isn't exactly pulling millions so now I have to figure somethings out. I am looking for work but I have to fit that around the Madam - I have my own business plan but of course you need financial back up for that!

Just for the mix add in a Mr that doesn't want to talk about anything, every man and his dog commenting on my parenting, the madams physical appearance and I am suddenly looking at that half a bottle of gin in the cupboard as a breakfast meal.

Here's hoping tomorrow brings flowers, sunshine and all things lovely cause today 'sucks big, green donkey dicks!'

Turn it up & Groove.....

Violence doesn't solve a thing

I can't remember how I came across this but I think it is a fabulous reminder that everything has a ripple effect.....people may think they are protesting for a better world - for peace, health, equality, etc.....but to do so in violent manner is quite ineffective and can do more harm than good.